Wow. I was just sitting around not really doing anything when it hit me. Came out of left field. Not that I was unaware of the subject/situation. I've been aware of it since I was 11 years old. But, it was one of those situations where I decided not to decide anything. Not to eliminate any of the *possiblities* or half the population, as a friend of mine says. But, as is wont to happen with me...the situation became clear in an instant. And a stone was lifted from me. A stone that was far heavier than I knew. Well, I'd been lugging it around since I was 11, I gotten used to it's weight. I didn't realize how heavy it was until it was gone. I'm lighter now. I'm still not actually deciding anything. But I don't think that was what the situation called for. It just called for an honest admition of the truth. I've been as truthful as I know how to be, with myself. I didn't fare so well on the other people side. I was asked a point blank question this evening and gave a non answer. The question caused me to doubt myself...big flaw...and I caved. I'll work on that.